THE DEVIL aka CANCER.

On a serious note.

Who hasn't been affected by someone who has had cancer?

I doubt any of you would be able to say 'Not I' to

the above question.

And if you can 100% honestly say that, you are one of the

luckiest people alive.

It almost feels like I've been around it my whole life.

Physically I haven't experienced it but personally I have.

A few too many times.

Actually you know what, I've been surrounded by death

my entire life.

Friends. Family. Loved ones.

~As I'm sure you can all relate to~

No one can escape it & no one can hide from it.

Recently i learned that someone who is very dear to me has just found out their mum has breast cancer.

I was choking back tears when i found out.

In that very moment, nothing else in my little

insignificant life mattered.

Nothing.

Not the stresses of work.

Not wondering if that cutie with the amazing smile actually

might like me.

Not a thing.

As I write the rough draft of this blog in my notebook (yes, I actually hand write it in a notebook first & edit it. Old school styles) I am currently sitting in a random cafe thinking & reminiscing about life & the people I've loved & lost.

Whether it's been because of cancer or another unforeseeable circumstance taking someone away too young.

MP3 player plugged into my ears drowning out the

world around me...

...Andrea Bocelli 'The Prayer' comes on.

Bloody hell.

The one song that makes me cry. Always.

*instant tears*

This is too much. I have to go.

Tell those who you love that you do.

To my darling girl friend.

Hang in there my love.

Infinity hugs, kisses & love.

You are not alone.

XOX

ps- I Love You.

Using a fake name when ordering coffee :)

Why?

Is it for the mystery, the excitement that we told a white lie to a total stranger & the fact that they will never know the truth,
will we get caught?

I know for a fact that I am not the only person who does this
when getting a coffee.
A few of my friends also have alias names.

Alias names are so James Bond, so Ethan Hunt & so hot right now!

I guess part of the reason I do it is because quite often people don't understand me.. I'm not talking a different language & I'm pretty sure I'm not talking jibberish..  
(no, sorry, I'm not going to tell you my real name, the majority of you will know me anyway)
What i will tell you is that my name has often been mistaken for Carol & even Nicole.

I took it upon myself to take away the awkwardness of having to correct people & spell out my name each time i order coffee.

It's just easier.

This got me thinking.

Why are we so scared about letting people know
who we really are?

Is it a subconscious protection for ourselves so we don't give people the opportunity to hurt us?

I, for example, am very guarded.

It takes a hell of a lot for me to let someone in.
A close friend put it best when she said about me:
"You are easy to get along with but hard to get to know."
Yeah. Can't really add anything to that.
She hit the nail on the head.

This quote is up there on my list of favourites:

"People who are guarded are afraid that you can see right through them. That's why they hide behind layers."

True.

Who really knows you?

Well, going out on a whim, I'd say there would only be a handful of people who really truly know you.

Inside & out.
Hold onto these people because those who mind, don't matter & those who matter don't mind.
Getting back to names..
..as per this picture recently sent to me by a friend, maybe I'll change my name to this:

...although, that might confuse people more.

'Copenhagen? Like the capital of Denmark?'

'Yes.'

XOX

ps- Speaking of Copenhagen, i hear it is amazing & i would love to go there!

Will you take me?

Please?